tsk tsk

if jealousy can vanish,

evil will perish.

love was never blind,

jealousy blinds the mind.

if being jealous is a sin,

then no human on earth is clean.

what can we do,

this is what we humans do.

-awsy

i have no idea why i suddenly wrote this,

i have weird inspirations.

oh wait, i wasn't even inspired to write this,

i just wrote it. o-o

for no darn reason. pftttttttttttttttttttttttt

tight.

everything is piling up.

even if the outcomes are not of my expectations, i think 2010 will be a fruitful year.

its like my life is speeding up, not that 2009 wasn't speedy enough.

aside from studies and the usual spm hoo-haa,

it seems like my club is getting more and more invitations from people,

should i be happy of the exposure or sad by the weekends taken for practice?

to top it off, there the upcoming MSSD tennis in march or april,

i'm not expecting much but it would be damn nice if krys and i can get a place to compensate our tan-ness. right ks? plus we would make duck-butt coach proud. TEEHEE

oh i forgot to mention,

mr chew is being pushy about my grade 5 violin exam,

he want me to have my exam/evaluation on novemeber (mind you, its spm month)

and he makes it seem like i don't have an option.

but i don't think i'll go with this, its just too risky for both spm and my violin exam.

oh,

my sunday nights will be taken from 24th of jan,

mr chew talked me into joining his orchestra group in kota kemuning.

and again he made it seem like i don't have any option.

but i'm looking forward to experience the orchestra practice.

everything mr chew wants me to do is for my own good though,

thats why i'm so glad i got him as my music mentor.

i really hope this year works out well. ^_^

its like the last and hopefully the best year of my schooling life.

i wish the best for all you biatches too!

i'm not christian,

i do believe in jesus, guanyinma, mother mary, buddha, every god on earth actually,

but on the whole islam and christian thingy.

i'm disappointed, disgusted and utterly speechless at their stupidity and irrational behavior.

this event will rekindle the racist community, and thus harmony is lost.

malaysia is a beautiful country,

why plaster all the chaos and evil on it? *sigh*

i solemnly wish there would be a day in the near future where a chinese or indian can be our prime minister

a new decade

happy 2010!

okla..sorry la..iknow i'm one day late T_T
i missed 01.01.10! shoot..
but its because i was at kuantan for the new year.
had a blast there with a certain biatch and her parents ^_^

i don't think i'm gonna list down my resolutions,
thats just too cliche.

school is starting day after tomorrow tomorrow!
MUMMYYYYYYYY!!!!

i'm so not ready.
but to let the universe work its way like what rhonda bryne said
I SHALL THINK POSITIVELY.
2010 IS AWESOME
SCHOOL IS AWESOME
SPM IS AWESOME
ok now i'm just gng overboard.

old is vintage

hahaha

i'm back with this blog layout.

sorry la i still prefer this one, i have no idea why though = =

decisions

ok so like this is so not worth my time,
but hey i have an extra of 3 minutes to spare in my life.

oh my goodness,
sometimes I can't even stand myself,
i know i'm indecisive, but i didn't know it was this bad!
ok so obviously i just changed my blogskin.
and after getting wet from surfing the net,
i'm like "oh this blogskin is so nice *click save* OH WAIT, thats nicer! *save again*"
and it goes on and on.
and when i view my blog again.
gosh. don't get me wrong, i still love this blogskin but i'm like being indefinite and the desire to change my blogskin is heightening as i'm typing.

all in all, i will be changing my blogskin, not now. soon.






holy prawn, i can't believe i just ranted on this. i bet i'm gonna delete this post sooner or later.
SEEEEEE HOW INCONCLUSIVE I CAN BE?!

the first

simplicity is the best design you can ever get.
i finally change my blog skin after a year. O_O
well its about time.


kyaaaaaa
i have to go to work tomorrow = =
i'm only working once a week,
AND I'M ALREADY COMPLAINING EVERY MONDAY!
even if the pay is good,
i'm not doing something i love.
i guess i really need to find something i love for my future career.
*sigh*

photoshop makes every photo look better.

turn to?

i just received an sms that filled up my schedule on 16th of december.
thank goodness i do not have anything important that day.
i know i should be happy, but i don't think i am because i don't accept myself that way.



*sigh*
this is not an emotional post,
just....erm...a thoughtful one. =)

did i mention,
i love the fact that christmas is just around the corner.
this season is filled with love, colours and music!
christmas songs has been one of my fav since like ever!


i need that biatch to come back asap,
at least i can talk to her.
that still doesn't mean i love you other biatches less. XD

beauté of language

When someone delivers a speech eloquently, doesn't it make your heart flutters?
well, mine flutters loud and hard.

When someone uses words declamatory,
and hidden behind the mask of conspicuous language is a message,
a message that make us wonder and wander.
yes, wonder and wander.
thats not a typo.
is it not convention for us to be wondering too much and soon find ourself wandering? no. well for me at least.
I guess my secret addiction for this is the effect of the diminishing in language among us youngsters in malaysia nowadays.
and maybe its not an addiction, maybe i misconceived and actually meant admiration.

when an eloquent speaker delivers,
their words linger in our thoughts, then and after,
leaving us challenged, to think over and to construe every single word spoken.
isn't it amazing?
the speaker speaks, the listener listens.
the speaker inspires, the listener aspires.
conclusively, it shows the us the power of language.

Regrettably, i can only dream to be a speaker.
maybe its the teachers fault for not being committed to their job, not giving us english homework of a certain standard,
maybe its me for only perceiving the importance and the beauty of language at the age of 14,
maybe its the education system as a whole for letting us study instead of learning.

Its never too late to start striving towards your dreams,
thats one of the many catchphrases carved in my mind.
though it may seem hard for me, since i only scored 78 for my english,(don't rub it in my face, i might slap you unconsciously), some may think 78 is good but you won't say that when you know my teacher's english standard. = =
but i'm not letting that stop me, because i've convinced myself that the reason behind those scores is my english teacher and not me.
even if i did like her as a teacher, she would be definitely be better off with other subjects.
well as for my chinese, i actually really strive to be good in chinese,
but its not paying off well since my effort don't deserve any paying anyway.
i envy people who can express their thoughts in chinese.
chinese is an elegant language.
a simple, short sentence can never be more succinct with chinese



oh,
besides my obvious dreams to be a superstar/artist/musician, XD
i have many, many more dreams. (like a certain someone. you know who you are.)
being a master of literacy is one of it incase you haven't notice. =)



ahhh the beauty of language. <3