just smile

we humans are really fragile,

emotionally and physically,

most of us becomes really upset and depressed when we overhear someone talking bad about us,

sometimes, someone told us a group of people, or a particular person dislikes us,

and we start thinking what the hell did we do to them?

well the truth is, you didn't do anything wrong,

there might be a few reasons to why people talk bad about you especially those whom you are not close to,

first of all, they're jealous of something about you,

next, they might just be using you as a topic when they're with others but they don't mean it,

next, maybe they're just joking,

and lastly, usually we're the one who complicate things because we think too much, maybe they were just making a neutral statement or question, but being the sensitive kind we start thinking negatively.

honestly, i'm in no place to say "don't worry, who cares about what they say?"

because i do care too, i used to be such an over-sensitive biatch even i don't like it,

i still am now, but i learned to get over it after thinking through it,

many people think i am a really cheerful and optimistic person,

thats because i choose to see the beautiful in life,

not because i live a life with no problems, trust me,

you have no idea what i've been through last time, what i'm going through now.

i understand that many of us have our problems,

we all think our problems are horrible,

we say fml because we think our life suck,

but really,

you have a family, broken, troubled or not, you still have a family,

you are not mentally or physically retarded,

you are living a life good or bad, you have a life,

do you have to sleep with an empty stomach?

do you have a hard time looking for clean water to drink when you're thirsty?

are you so poor you can't afford a meal?

so lemme ask you know,

do you still feel unlucky?

do you still think your life sucks now?

if you do, i'd reckon you have a talk with someone. :)

after reading all this, one might think that,

"aiya amanda sure can say like that ma, her life no problem what, family and friends also she got?"

well,

don't you have a family and lotsa friends too?

and trust me every family has its problems, almost every family has huge problems,

for some it maybe they're relationship is horrible, some are financially unstable,

so don't go hating your life just because of something every goes through.

every morning when i wake up, i choose to be happy,

its not easy as it sounds, sometimes i fail,

but its a challenge for a better life.

i may complain about stuffs like since form 1 i've been complaining about wanting to have my own room, not enough clothes, why guys don't like me? why am i such a useless kid to my parents bla bla bla,

i may hate myself sometimes, its only human nature,

but never have i once hated my life.

because no matter how i see it i'm privileged.

and so are you,

i hope everyone reminds themselves of how lucky they are.

and

happiness is a choice, it always is a choice.

so choose,

because i choose to be happy. and i hope you do too. :)

happiness is a choice, it always will be

love,

awsy