Amanda's Secret Garden

2011-09-16T14:34:00.001+08:00

I wanna go back to the generation where “going out” was going on a date, not immediatly begin bf/gf. I wanna go back to the generation when a guy had to get permission from the girl’s parents to ask her out. I wanna go back to the generation where a guy would physically call her and talk to her, not text. I wanna go back to the generation where your first kiss would be with someone you’ve been dating for months, not hookup with a guy

you meet at a party. I wanna go back to the generation where a guy would give you his varsity jacket. I wanna go back to the generation where a girl can get any guy just by wearing a t-shirt, jeans, and a pair of sneakers. I wanna go back to the generation where couples slow danced, not grind. I wanna go back to the generation where love actually made sense……

2011-09-14T21:29:00.001+08:00

I’m the kind of girl who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close. I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times. I’m a hopeless romantic. I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet. I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible. I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me. I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems. I believe people should not be judged before one takes the time to get to know them, yet I am guilty of doing that exact thing. I love to think rather than talk. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me. Take it or leave it.

hurt

2011-02-20T17:28:00.004+08:00

i must accept the reality,

stop having hope,

stop making positive assumptions,

because its obvious isn't it?

that it won't work out.

you don't even know,

she doesn't even know,

and i already understand my position.

i just want to say that

it hurts. it really hurts.

sleepless

2011-02-08T18:11:00.003+08:00

last night was the first of many sleepless nights to come,

i was finishing my assignment till around 3 something.

then woke up at 9.30 before rushing to an appointment in Damansara at 11.30.

goodness, it was not fun.

but i won't deny it feels great after im done with it! :DDD

recently my face has become a hot spot for pimples!

T_T mom says its because i'm nervous, anxious and excited about life in college,

but why am i feeling nonchalant?

ah well.

hop to hope

2011-02-06T13:24:00.005+08:00

happy lunar new year everyone

have a great one

gong xi fa chai

halcyon

2011-01-20T14:13:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling glad.

stereotype

2011-01-17T20:37:00.002+08:00

just because i'm a student at taylors does not make me a rich kid.

i chose taylors, it wasn't easy, the financial problems, trust me, you don't know.

but i will make it worth while.

i must

2011-01-17T20:30:00.002+08:00

just a heads up.

yours truly is currently a student at TCSJ, CPU program. :)

sudden decision on doing the jan intake.

but whatever it is, i must make the best out of it, i will enjoy later on.

i must focus this year.

studies, ECA, family, friends.

balance, determination, effort.

i must not screw up.

after the amount my parents paid for my pre-u studies,

i will not screw up.

the noughties

2011-01-08T17:33:00.010+08:00

people and things who made 2010 great

my family, tbwl family, 5s3, friends, everyone,

whatever happened, bad or good, happened,

this is life,

but

thank you.

cause you made it easier :)

liar

2010-12-31T00:21:00.001+08:00

no regrets.

2010-12-25T23:06:00.003+08:00

jst a random pic of my fam.

Take a step back. Look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to, then let go when it’s time. Don’t hang onto painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren’t worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone’s day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to it’s full potential. Just live, dammit. Let go of all of the horrible in your life and freaking live. And one day, when you’re old, look back with no regrets.

pour hommes

2010-12-21T09:10:00.003+08:00

came back from phuket ytd,

don't really wanna type out a lengthy post about my trip,

but it was fun =)

its been a week after SPM and i've been gng out so often i did not even rest properly,

NOT COMPLAINING THOUGH. TEEHEE.

one of my best outing would be shopping with krystal and a day out with my tbwl family :D

i bet my classmates are having a blast in genting and will have lotsa fun in Pangkor,

but unfortunately i don't have a chauffeur to drive me all the way to pangkor,

what to do? =(

anyway,

our prom is on next monday. i hope it'll be a blast. =)

aw shoot i still need to get me a pair of heels and MAKEUP!

WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOO

2010-12-08T20:14:00.002+08:00

first, lots and lots and lots of (window) shopping,

i am not rich what to do, but i am still a very happy girl :D

fashion is my inspiration.

some people don't know what fashion means to me just because i don't dress up dramatically like a fashionista,

well you're wrong. :P

just smile

2010-12-04T00:17:00.006+08:00

we humans are really fragile,

emotionally and physically,

most of us becomes really upset and depressed when we overhear someone talking bad about us,

sometimes, someone told us a group of people, or a particular person dislikes us,

and we start thinking what the hell did we do to them?

well the truth is, you didn't do anything wrong,

there might be a few reasons to why people talk bad about you especially those whom you are not close to,

first of all, they're jealous of something about you,

next, they might just be using you as a topic when they're with others but they don't mean it,

next, maybe they're just joking,

and lastly, usually we're the one who complicate things because we think too much, maybe they were just making a neutral statement or question, but being the sensitive kind we start thinking negatively.

honestly, i'm in no place to say "don't worry, who cares about what they say?"

because i do care too, i used to be such an over-sensitive biatch even i don't like it,

i still am now, but i learned to get over it after thinking through it,

many people think i am a really cheerful and optimistic person,

thats because i choose to see the beautiful in life,

not because i live a life with no problems, trust me,

you have no idea what i've been through last time, what i'm going through now.

i understand that many of us have our problems,

we all think our problems are horrible,

we say fml because we think our life suck,

but really,

you have a family, broken, troubled or not, you still have a family,

you are not mentally or physically retarded,

you are living a life good or bad, you have a life,

do you have to sleep with an empty stomach?

do you have a hard time looking for clean water to drink when you're thirsty?

are you so poor you can't afford a meal?

so lemme ask you know,

do you still feel unlucky?

do you still think your life sucks now?

if you do, i'd reckon you have a talk with someone. :)

after reading all this, one might think that,

"aiya amanda sure can say like that ma, her life no problem what, family and friends also she got?"

well,

don't you have a family and lotsa friends too?

and trust me every family has its problems, almost every family has huge problems,

for some it maybe they're relationship is horrible, some are financially unstable,

so don't go hating your life just because of something every goes through.

every morning when i wake up, i choose to be happy,

its not easy as it sounds, sometimes i fail,

but its a challenge for a better life.

i may complain about stuffs like since form 1 i've been complaining about wanting to have my own room, not enough clothes, why guys don't like me? why am i such a useless kid to my parents bla bla bla,

i may hate myself sometimes, its only human nature,

but never have i once hated my life.

because no matter how i see it i'm privileged.

and so are you,

i hope everyone reminds themselves of how lucky they are.

and

happiness is a choice, it always is a choice.

so choose,

because i choose to be happy. and i hope you do too. :)

happiness is a choice, it always will be

love,

awsy

a good ending?

2010-11-09T20:38:00.002+08:00

graduation,

if you're a form 5 student from kwang hua you'd probably be fed up of all the graduation posts, statuses on fb and whatnot,

i refused to blog about it too but i just couldn't resist expressing how i feel about graduating anymore.

since form 1, my biggest dream was to graduate as soon as possible and get out of high school,

that's still something i'm excited for, which is happening in 2 days.

i never thought i'd be saying this, but i think i will miss my high school years, i won't miss it too much but i sure will reminisce the time i have here.

i'm totally TOTALLY excited about college,

and at the same time i'm feeling reluctant about leaving school. (not that i have a choice)

i don't know i used to think i cold leave high school friends easily,

i mean keeping in touch is not hard for our generation,

but i would miss the days of going to sleep every night and knowing who i'll meet the day after.

although i do hate waking up so damn early in the morning.

SEE HOW IRONIC I CAN BE?!

= =

if it wasn't for high school, i wouldn't have known my best friend, krystal, i wouldn't have known my relationship with Zie Sze could be so strong even after 11 years, i wouldn't have known so many awesome people, i don't need to write names down because i think you'd know who you are :)

so i guess thats all i have to say abt graduating for now.

hugs

2010-11-05T16:14:00.001+08:00

there's always a reason behind every action. and the best reason is love. - AWSY

everyday

2010-10-06T17:14:00.002+08:00

2010-10-06T17:13:00.001+08:00

upside down

2010-09-20T19:28:00.002+08:00

i hope his face made u smile.

something horrible happened to a friend,

all i want is for everyone (including myself) to appreciate everything you have and stop complaining.

really, just suck it up, buck up, and live life to the fullest.

and love your family and friends.

its so heartbreaking to see most of us never treat the ones who love us the way they deserve,

but its not too late yet. :)

fash-ion

2010-09-18T22:33:00.003+08:00

its amazing how fashion uplifts my mood.

and a little something u definitely did not know,

i used to HATE like absolutely HATE dressing up,

until puberty hit me when i was 14, and fashion has been everything.

i still couldn't stand buying shoes until last year i realized how shoes can change your life.

believe me, it can

nude suedes are definitely no.1 on my shopping list as of now. but first, i need the money T_T *sighS*

Je suis désolée

2010-09-15T00:04:00.003+08:00

i am sorry for everything i said.

i'll be honest here, though i say i'm sorry, it doesn't mean that i think i'm wrong,

i'm just willing to take a step back to prevent things from getting worse.
and most importantly, i still want you as a friend. really i do.

maybe you don't even care,

maybe you didn't even think of it much,

but i feel something different though its only what i feel by talking to you virtually.

whatever it is, i am willing to take a step back to return to how it used to be.

i am sorry.

le grand rêve~

2010-09-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

oh,

there's always that tingle and pinch in my heart when i see paris,

is it the fashion? is it the language? is it the people?

oh i really do not know.

most likely its everything.

some say paris is overrated, well,

all i know is that is moi grand reve~

one day, just one day, i would wake up and have the eiffel tower be my morning view.

glamnation

2010-09-04T17:27:00.007+08:00

OHOHOHOHOHO

YESHHHHHHHHHH!

ADAM LAMBERT IS COMING TO TOWN BABEH!

like come on, whoever has an eye for music, fashion, entertainment and stage presence would not want to miss this, not in a million years.

are you telling me you're willing to miss this?

or this?

or this?

ok fine i don't care if you missed it, but you'll be missing out big time.

ps: he looks super divine in a tux. absolute hotness.

GLAMNATION

OCT 14TH

schedule for the day-full

too late

2010-08-29T20:25:00.001+08:00

fly away

2010-08-20T14:30:00.004+08:00

i need a vacation!

and i'm getting a weekend trip to PD with my family..

woohooo,

its the beach again! i'm coming babeh!!

the only downside is i won't be able to attend tennis practice for 2 days :(

but finally a break.

boyfriend?

2010-08-18T21:32:00.005+08:00

someone asked me a question earlier that irked me to write this post,

the conversation goes like this

"do you have a boyfriend?"

"no :)"

"why not?"

"...."

"are you lying?"

"....."

i get this so much, its getting abit annoying :X

why is it so unbelievable that i do not have a boyfriend and never had one.

do i look that much of a playgirl? = = ok i'm not referring to the playboy magazine bunnies lahhh.

and is it so much of a shock that i only have like less than 3 crushes my whole life?

if you include celebrity crushes that'll be more than a thousand thank you very much.

hey, celebrities are hot aight? XD

why don't i have a boyfriend?

cause love has not come to me yet.

simple.

its NOT because i'm setting my standards to high for my boyfriend ok?

i know i may look like someone who swoons over hot guys all the time, but that does not make me shallow, i'm only human i like swooning over gorgeous stuffs. sue me lah! :P

it may seem unbelievable for a person like me but all i really want in a guy is to b

e sensitive, have a good sense of humour, and loves to pamper and be pampered. :P

oh and taller than me.

and yes i haven't found someone like this yet.

and even if i find them, they might be someone sitting across me when i'm ta

king the train.

or someone who walked pass me when i was shopping.

its all fate. cliche, but undeniably true.

heck i might not even find this guy now because its like jinx-ed after i post this. yennadey

and contrary to popular beliefs,

i'd rather have a best-friend-turn-boyfriend kind of guy then love at first sight.

to me, the latter is bull. :X

so, god,

when the time comes, let me know TEEHEE.

because i'm saving all my love for that one and only, (man is he lucky) hahahah

amen, amituofuo.

tumblr-ified

2010-08-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

http://beyondmanda.tumblr.com/

you'll see me there :)

wish i'd never

2010-07-29T22:02:00.002+08:00

how do you know if you love someone?

to all those lucky couples out there, how did you know?

i wish i never let my guards down,

i wish i could control how i feel,

i wish i could just want you as a friend,

i know i don't love you,

but it still hurts.

i will get over it,

but for now,

i want you to know,

it hurts.

MTV Worldstage Passes

2010-07-22T20:17:00.005+08:00

I'm heading for MTV Worldstage again this year :D

Last year was a blast.

much thanks and love to Xpax, although i wish i could have more tickets so i can party with my girls :(

I know many of you out there are still hunting for the tickets,

I don't know much but I guess i could help you guys abit on this.

Chances will be lesser now as the concert is just around the corner.

1. Xpax

I got my tickets by reloading RM50 and redeemed it as soon as i could, but unfortunately the promotion ended, but don't worry though! Xpax are still offering you to take home some passes.

Just click on this link,

http://www.facebook.com/connect/uiserver.php?app_id=133029843398543&next=http%3A%2F%2Fapps.facebook.com%2Fmtvworldstage%2F&display=page&locale=en_US&return_session=0&fbconnect=0&canvas=1&legacy_return=1&method=permissions.request

The instructions should be included there, I'm not so sure about this though as i think they are abit glitchy.

Besides that, you could also get a Xpax number and

download Katy Perry's Call me Tones at http://www.channelx.com.my from 12th of July till 25th of July to get 2 passes.

2. Purchase The Wonder Girls 2Different Tears Album

just click on the link below, and universal music will tell you what you want to know

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=411162956821

But HURRY! cause its on first come first serve basis only! but i'm sure you'll stand a chance if you act fast since universal music only posted this announcement today.

3. Pre-book Katy Perry's latest album
Prebook her latest album, Teenage Dream from Rock Corner, Speedy or Victoria Outlets at Klang Valley. Promotion ends on 30th of July. But this will only entitle you with one pass.

4. Purchase Tokio Hotel's Album

Purchase TH's Humanoid Msian Edition album and be at Rock Corner outlets on 24th July - 4pm at Bangsar Village and 7pm at Subang Parade; 25th July - 12pm at Mid Valley and 3pm at The Gardens, and stand a chance to win the passes or golden ticket to meet Tokio hotel in person.

5. Spend RM200 at Sunway Pyramid

Spend a minimum of RM200 at any outlet except Jusco, Parkson and Giant and stand a chance to win a pair of tickets. Promotion ends on 28th of July.

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So far these are the chances I know that is still going on. I'm only sharing with you the chances of getting the passes, whether or not you get the passes by doing what i said on the above is based on your personal luck and fate. i'm sorry :(

but good luck! smiles :)

way back in time.

2010-07-18T17:51:00.006+08:00

Hey you,

i hope we could be as close as we were like how it used to be,

honestly, i kinda doubted you as a friend recently because of your attitude,

I don't like how you can hate someone while she isn't there and be as close as sisters when she's around,

it makes me wonder if you'd ever bad-mouthed me when i'm not around and pretend to love me as a friend when we're together,

I hope you did not do that, but my instincts says you did.

and frankly speaking, sometimes i think you put boys before friendship, ALL BOYS, not just the ones you like,

and that is really shallow in my opinion.

maybe i'm the one being too sensitive, but so far i don't think i'm the one who noticed that.

anyway, i'm willing to put all this aside and continue being friends with you,

because i know deep down inside there's a girl whom i really like as a friend.

adrenaline

2010-07-17T23:04:00.003+08:00

wouldn't it be awesome, if i could have my own stage and put on a show on everything i've got?

i wonder what its like, to be on stage, pumped with adrenaline, and showing everyone how fantastic you are in things you love doing?

i reckon it would be an ecstatic experience.

flim-flam

2010-07-13T21:42:00.002+08:00

when you have so many options to choose from, how do you decide?

my decisions, i know they support my decisions,

but i know my decision is not their preferable options.

how do you satisfy both sides?

is it possible to do so?

2010-07-08T20:11:00.002+08:00

i was feelin abit happy the other day :) for no particular reason, esp not because of you.

kekekekek

2010-05-31T14:07:00.001+08:00

eeeehehehhehe

somebody turned on my hyper button again XD

exam is still on,

3 more days to freedom! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

i would rather you not read this i just need to type it out

2010-05-02T21:48:00.008+08:00

i didn't know i could get hurt this way,

because i know i am stronger than this,

i've been through way tougher times than this,

i've molded myself in so many ways to reduce all the hurt,

but i didn't cover up one of the cracks well,

and now, it hurts real bad it hurts more than when a knife cuts through your heart,

it hurts that bad.

i wish i could care less,

because all the time i'm the only one hurting myself,

no one is out there to hurt me,

its just me hurting me.

and its because of my biggest sin, being envious.

i know my life is great, with everyone and everything i have,

its just that sometimes i feel like everything i work hard for, i work so so so hard for...the outcomes are far from what i expected, it hurts so bad,

and conversely, everything i don't really give a damn turns out smoothly and better than i thought.

sometimes i feel like its god's way of punishing me for my sins, i'm not blaming him i'm just saying..

and when you see others getting what you worked hard and wanted so much more than they do, yes i feel happy for them at the same time its impossible refraining from being jealous.

alll this stupid immature feelings i have,

THEY ARE THE REASON WHY I KEEP MYSELF BUSY,

like now, i'm having a bit of a free time, and all this thoughts are rushing back to me,

i'm sorry to friends who always ajak me out and got rejected because of my schedule,

now you know why i like being busy,

especially when you're busy doing things you love.

the busy moments are the ones that mold me into a stronger person.

while being a whiner here, i am sorry to all the childrens and people who struggle and battle just to live through everyday, i really am, but for today, no, just tonight, i need to let it out.

disguise

2010-03-11T23:38:00.001+08:00

most of the time,
i'm not who you think i am.
i guess its the same for everyone,
but i think my case is slightly formidable.
this question pops in my head everyday,
"am i really me today?"
i think this routine started since last year.

sometimes, just sometimes,
i'm talkative only because i don't want the situation to get awkward,
i'm acting stupid because it makes some people smile,
im being a tomboy because some people would think i'm fake if i'm being my girly self,
i'm being all those things i'm not because i don't want people to feel awkward and think i'm unfriendly.

but in the end, i'm the one feeling exhausted.

ironically, no matter what, so long people have no negative feelings towards me then i'll be happy.

its not easy being a people pleaser, not that people are always pleased with me, but like , well, yeah. i wish i could care less what other people think.

maybe some would feel like punching me or already dislike me after this post, who knows.

but no one can stop me from wondering, would they really like me if i am, well, me?

unfortunately, being someone else is a disease that is painstakingly spreading through every part, every thought of mine.

i have to stop it, i will stop it,

i like the old me,

i just need time.

lucky me i have my family and few buddies whom i can show the real me.
thank you. no really. thank you.

you know who you are. xoxo

unwritten

2010-03-06T22:31:00.004+08:00

i don't hope for everyday to be friday, but i dream for every night to be like friday night!
in case you didn't know, i have tennis training every fri night.
and i look forward to it every week!
we have training on sat and sun morn too but the atmospher is totally different!
i need to thank krys sooo much for asking me to teman her for tennis last year, and thank god i agreed.
life was good, and tennis and the gang made it more awesome.
honestly i am not really sure why i love tennis,
i don't know if its the adrenaline rush when i hit the ball,
or if its the challenge to be better,
or the awesome friends and awesome coachie i have there.
or just tennis.
but its just so very awesome.
and the awesome-ness is at its peak on almost every fri night,
we'll play, laugh and love.
my energy and my love for life increases alot on fri nights. <3

sometimes i wonder, if its not for the awesome peeps there, would i love tennis as much as i do now?

i love you awesome people on the court, yes each and everyone of you, and you too coach! and i love you too ma, pa and my 2 lovely sisters! and of course you too my frens in school, i may hate school but you people in school are my fuel for waking up in the morning every friggin day! love

peace and love from your very own,
Amando!

friends

2010-02-21T15:24:00.005+08:00

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SHOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEE

this is gonna top my list of favourite pictures all time.

not only is this picture uberly cute,

it defines true friendship.

tsk tsk

2010-01-19T21:44:00.003+08:00

if jealousy can vanish,

evil will perish.

love was never blind,

jealousy blinds the mind.

if being jealous is a sin,

then no human on earth is clean.

what can we do,

this is what we humans do.

-awsy

i have no idea why i suddenly wrote this,

i have weird inspirations.

oh wait, i wasn't even inspired to write this,

i just wrote it. o-o

for no darn reason. pftttttttttttttttttttttttt

tight.

2010-01-09T18:23:00.003+08:00

everything is piling up.

even if the outcomes are not of my expectations, i think 2010 will be a fruitful year.

its like my life is speeding up, not that 2009 wasn't speedy enough.

aside from studies and the usual spm hoo-haa,

it seems like my club is getting more and more invitations from people,

should i be happy of the exposure or sad by the weekends taken for practice?

to top it off, there the upcoming MSSD tennis in march or april,

i'm not expecting much but it would be damn nice if krys and i can get a place to compensate our tan-ness. right ks? plus we would make duck-butt coach proud. TEEHEE

oh i forgot to mention,

mr chew is being pushy about my grade 5 violin exam,

he want me to have my exam/evaluation on novemeber (mind you, its spm month)

and he makes it seem like i don't have an option.

but i don't think i'll go with this, its just too risky for both spm and my violin exam.

oh,

my sunday nights will be taken from 24th of jan,

mr chew talked me into joining his orchestra group in kota kemuning.

and again he made it seem like i don't have any option.

but i'm looking forward to experience the orchestra practice.

everything mr chew wants me to do is for my own good though,

thats why i'm so glad i got him as my music mentor.

i really hope this year works out well. ^_^

its like the last and hopefully the best year of my schooling life.

i wish the best for all you biatches too!

i'm not christian,

i do believe in jesus, guanyinma, mother mary, buddha, every god on earth actually,

but on the whole islam and christian thingy.

i'm disappointed, disgusted and utterly speechless at their stupidity and irrational behavior.

this event will rekindle the racist community, and thus harmony is lost.

malaysia is a beautiful country,

why plaster all the chaos and evil on it? *sigh*

i solemnly wish there would be a day in the near future where a chinese or indian can be our prime minister

a new decade

2010-01-02T23:54:00.007+08:00

happy 2010!

okla..sorry la..iknow i'm one day late T_T
i missed 01.01.10! shoot..
but its because i was at kuantan for the new year.
had a blast there with a certain biatch and her parents ^_^

i don't think i'm gonna list down my resolutions,
thats just too cliche.

school is starting ~~day after tomorrow~~ tomorrow!
MUMMYYYYYYYY!!!!

i'm so not ready.
but to let the universe work its way like what rhonda bryne said
I SHALL THINK POSITIVELY.
2010 IS AWESOME
SCHOOL IS AWESOME
SPM IS AWESOME
ok now i'm just gng overboard.

the first

2009-12-14T22:37:00.004+08:00

simplicity is the best design you can ever get.
i finally change my blog skin after a year. O_O
well its about time.

kyaaaaaa
i have to go to work tomorrow = =
i'm only working once a week,
AND I'M ALREADY COMPLAINING EVERY MONDAY!
even if the pay is good,
i'm not doing something i love.
i guess i really need to find something i love for my future career.
*sigh*

photoshop makes every photo look better.

turn to?

2009-12-09T12:09:00.003+08:00

i just received an sms that filled up my schedule on 16th of december.
thank goodness i do not have anything important that day.
i know i should be happy, but i don't think i am because i don't accept myself that way.

*sigh*
this is not an emotional post,
just....erm...a thoughtful one. =)

did i mention,
i love the fact that christmas is just around the corner.
this season is filled with love, colours and music!
christmas songs has been one of my fav since like ever!

i need that biatch to come back asap,
at least i can talk to her.
that still doesn't mean i love you other biatches less. XD

beauté of language

2009-11-26T20:14:00.005+08:00

When someone delivers a speech eloquently, doesn't it make your heart flutters?
well, mine flutters loud and hard.

When someone uses words declamatory,
and hidden behind the mask of conspicuous language is a message,
a message that make us wonder and wander.
yes, wonder and wander.
thats not a typo.
is it not convention for us to be wondering too much and soon find ourself wandering? no. well for me at least.
I guess my secret addiction for this is the effect of the diminishing in language among us youngsters in malaysia nowadays.
and maybe its not an addiction, maybe i misconceived and actually meant admiration.

when an eloquent speaker delivers,
their words linger in our thoughts, then and after,
leaving us challenged, to think over and to construe every single word spoken.
isn't it amazing?
the speaker speaks, the listener listens.
the speaker inspires, the listener aspires.
conclusively, it shows the us the power of language.

Regrettably, i can only dream to be a speaker.
maybe its the teachers fault for not being committed to their job, not giving us english homework of a certain standard,
maybe its me for only perceiving the importance and the beauty of language at the age of 14,
maybe its the education system as a whole for letting us study instead of learning.

Its never too late to start striving towards your dreams,
thats one of the many catchphrases carved in my mind.
though it may seem hard for me, since i only scored 78 for my english,(don't rub it in my face, i might slap you unconsciously), some may think 78 is good but you won't say that when you know my teacher's english standard. = =
but i'm not letting that stop me, because i've convinced myself that the reason behind those scores is my english teacher and not me.
even if i did like her as a teacher, she would be definitely be better off with other subjects.
well as for my chinese, i actually really strive to be good in chinese,
but its not paying off well since my effort don't deserve any paying anyway.
i envy people who can express their thoughts in chinese.
chinese is an elegant language.
a simple, short sentence can never be more succinct with chinese

oh,
besides my obvious dreams to be a superstar/artist/musician, XD
i have many, many more dreams. (like a certain someone. you know who you are.)
being a master of literacy is one of it incase you haven't notice. =)

ahhh the beauty of language. <3

4s3

2009-11-20T16:38:00.002+08:00

it is coming to an end,
but this end leads to the blooming of a whole new love and connection.

subtle as it may seem,
it is there,
time will reveal,
luckily we still have another year, no?

its not too long,
this sentences of mine,
but the messages within,
thats what matters most.

^_^

Peace on earth,
Amanda Wong

i want to be in oxford

2009-11-16T21:19:00.002+08:00

in oxford heels that is.
Shoot la..where can i get this babies for a reasonable price??
the main problem is i can't even find it in any stores arond klang.

vintage oxfords. what could be better?
absolute L.O.V.E

this post would be endless if i do not stop right now.
i have been in love with these shoes for a few months now and can you believe that i've found nothing close to those above in klang?!!

they're now officially number 2 in my christmas wishlist.
number 1 is still an ipod touch.

have fun drooling over those babies.

kekeekeke

2009-11-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

eeeyerrrr..
i feel so stupid reading my last post. = =

i just feel like posting this!

so cute XD

anyway..
i might be changing my blog url soon.
but i'll give you guys a heads up if i do. ^^

thick eyebrows

2009-10-29T20:43:00.003+08:00

ok i'm here.
after a loooooooong while, i'm here again XD
honestly i don't know what to blog about without any pictures.
so lets have the pics do the talking

nothing but l.o.v.e

ok
here's the catch.
the catch of why i'm actually even blogging now.
you see,
i was surfing the net, really surfing,
when i stumbled upon this blog,
and i drooled.
literally.
in case you don't know yet,
i go gaga for all (almost!) guys with thick brows. (and a perfect smile)
so here's some eye candy that i'd like to share with you girls.
and gays. and myself.
trust me.
he's hot.
i shit you not.
god is great.

if it wasn't for this pic of him smiling i wouldn't have like him.

i hope i made your day.

toodles biatches <3

With love,
Manda

Bugger

2009-10-12T14:02:00.002+08:00

Krystal is bugging me to blog right now.
we went for tennis.
we have tuition later.
i'm craving for food.
and we're gonna study now.

happy now?

limited

2009-09-27T18:45:00.002+08:00

school reopens tomorrow.
time flies.
and soon enough i would be suffering at the hall cracking my head up for some answers for the papers.

awww dammit,
school books really limits my horizons.
and i don't like it.
all the time spent on school books,
i could have use it for taking one step closer to my dreams.

really, i wish we could have exams more pratically than theoretically.

Till then,
i'll not stop.

love<3

2009-09-21T23:30:00.004+08:00

Thanks sis for buying me Mixstyle Headphone and
Lee Hom's MusicMan DVD which includes his Man in the Mirror CD!

Really appreciate that you even thought of buying the headphone for me <3

THANK YOU~~!

~~pictures up next. i hope ._.~~

i might sell the headphone bcos i don't have a mp3 yet T_T

i wonder

2009-09-18T23:16:00.006+08:00

why is it that i tell other people things i can't do myself.
What's the point?
Wouldn't it be lovely if i could do the exact i tell others?

we are usually judged and valued for the things we say.
but let me tell you,
i'm not one for you to judge ot value throught my sayings.
my mind and personality don't go that way.

I'm amanda
but i'm a weirdo.

I'm a Mando.

what is it

2009-09-12T20:41:00.001+08:00

A mile from end to end,
Yet as close to you as a friend.
A precious commodity, freely given.
Seen on the dead and on the living.
Found on the rich, poor, short and tall,
But shared among children most of all.

What is it?

A smile, of course.

one in a million

2009-09-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

09/09/09

lucky day. for you. for me. not so for some.
be happy. stay happy.
you'll find happiness.
someone is out there for you.
I'll be here for you.

나기다리죠...

restless

2009-08-28T00:10:00.003+08:00

amazingly i did not use photoshop for this

not bad for an amateur right? ㅋㅋㅋ

꿈? 꿈이무슨?
왜나면, 내가미첫서..

내가 정말 원하다,
근데........나는 너무 많은 꿈꾸고있어?

잠깐만!!
너무 많이 생각을 ㅠㅠ
내가행복 해 ^^

당신이, 제발 행복하새요!<3>

i don't care if i'm wrong, but i'm sure years of self korean learning wouldn't be too bad. ^^
spare me some love, i didn't use online translators.

holipop

2009-08-24T21:05:00.002+08:00

nothing to get excited about actually since its only a week.

i didn't get to go to famine camp that i was anticipating for months thanks to h1n1.

lets not talk about that. T_T

anyway it sure is holiday but why is it that i feel so burdened,

this week is like a week before a deadline.

i feel like theres so many things i need to do,

my dream,

my responsibilities,

my hobbies.

wouldn't it be nice if we had 48 hours a day =)

kiss goodbye

2009-08-14T21:24:00.002+08:00

i'm sure you know about morakot typhoon flooding taiwan,
i knew too, i just didn't know how bad it was, until about 30 minutes ago.

It is so heartbreaking to see them searching and crying for their family,
while i am right here a few steps away from my family and am not fully appreciating my time with them.
i can't even imagine how they are handling the pain now.

in times of pain we see a great deal of love and kindness shared among ourselves.
ironic but true.
a man took a leave from work to volunteer for a search hunt when the tide is still high,
maybe god wanted this great man by his side, the guy died when his lifeboat toppled.
they didn't manage to bring him back to life.
that news really brought me to tears, when you watch the video you will cry too.

I haven't seen any organizations asking for donations for the victims of morakot typhoon in malaysia yet,
i hope they have one soon,
i don't have a credit card for donating it through the net, and my dad doesn't believe the internet,
but i'm looking for ways to help them.
in the mean time lets just be grateful that we're still alive and pray for the ones in sorrow now.

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Kahlil Gibran stated a fact.

i'm still alive.

2009-07-17T19:53:00.004+08:00

UBERLY LOOOOOOOOOOONG TIME SINCE I UPDATED,
and i just came by to drop you a note to let you know that i'm perfectly fine XD

well i guess if i'm blogging lesser it means that i'm actually having fun outside cyberspace =D
things have been hectic but nonetheless awesome!
since i have to many things to tell, i'll just sum them up into short sentences and show u my summarizing skill. lalalalala

1. i was in a shoot on wednesday, great hair, great make-up, sucky outfit.
2. i need to exercise MORE.
3. i'm trying to understand why the number on my scale is decreasing but the inches are the same. O_O
4. i love my diabolo club, i may not love diabolo but oh do i love the club.
5. i need to go shopping, i don't have to buy stuffs i just want to have them on me for like 10 secs. weird, i know.
6. i want to watch HP and blardy transformers.
7. i need a professional costume and t-shirt designer.
8. i need to help kok yiew in our performance concepts X.X
9. oh and i need to brush up all my subjects now before the finals or i'm totally doomed.
10. ooh crap i have nothing in mind for number 10.

welll...
there's actually alot more going around nowadays, like the previous mut and the upcoming performances, but i really am to friggin lazy to write about them.

lazy
lazy
lazy
lazy

lalalallala

i love my family and friends. and of course music and dancing, need i say more?

tired

2009-06-27T20:19:00.002+08:00

its been a looooooooong time since i've updated = =

haih tired la tired..
so many things to do,
so little time for things i love T_T
and i've been neglecting my violin home practice session, i miss you so much violinnie T_T

not much that's about it tired.. for this 2 weeks....

the star that shines so bright

2009-06-10T21:31:00.003+08:00

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH

i saw a shooting star .
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
omg!
one of the things in my things-to-do-before-i-die list!
i'm so happy i don't know what to say.
but thank you to the angel of shooting stars. i love you.

i hope it means something good =)

oh, shoot.

2009-05-28T17:20:00.003+08:00

yes shoot.

i never thought i would pass my physics.
but after knowing all i need is 1 mark to pass?
gosh i wasn't furious i just felt stupid.
i would so rather get a 20 plus lo!
arghhhhhhhhhhhh
oh well.

haha i dunno la..
results dun really affect me. (ok except english)
but whenever i think about my parents it just hurts.
although my mum is fine with me failing she always go "aiyaa....so? fail only ma? do better next time lo.."
my dad on the other hand depends on his mood, he would either go HAHA or STARE.
if i get a B for my English i can say byebye to my dad's haha.

ok sorry if no one got that. = =

i dun wan to fail the next time because even if my mum and dad are the best and never show if they're feeling disappointed. i want to let them feel good instead of no comment. :D

i love them so very much. <3

ok...nuff said bout exam.

2 weeks of holiday..
so much to do, so little time.
and did u realize?
2009 is starting to fade. almost half of it is gone.
so silently, so swiftly, gone.
i can't stop myself from asking, what have i done to make me a better person?

peace on earth,
Amanda

hooooooo- ray?

2009-05-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

mid terms ended,
epic failure even after i studied quite hard.
oh well..

anyway i want to go shopping and karaoke with my best buds~~!
a little vacation would be fine too but with H1N1,
my father wouldn't even let me think about it. *sigh*

broken vow and a pledge of love

2009-05-12T21:53:00.004+08:00

i vowed not to come online until after the mid terms,
but i'm just here for a short while.
i hope. =)

it may 12th today.
i just read the newspaper.
and i saw a full page dedicated to 2008 Sichuan's earthquake victim.
i felt a mixture of emotions after reading the article.

i'm sad that we complain about stuffs that some people kill to have,
i'm angry because we have everything to be happy yet we don't live life to the fullest,
i'm angry that emo-teens nowadays have the thought of committing suicide just because they feel alienated or break-ups or because of their exam results,
i'm sad because most of the time we only appreciate things after losing them,
i'm sad that most of us take life for granted.

What about those SiChuan Victims?
did they have the choice to choose to live or die at that moment?
How I wish they had the choice.

I wish i have the power to help them.
I know i will have the power to help them.
Financially, mentally, and physically.
maybe not now, but in the future.
all i can give to them at the moment is my hopes and prayers.
when i visit them,
i want to give love and support to the survivors who lost their families the way my family loves and supports me,
i want to let them know that no matter how disastrous life may seem, love is what keeps life going.
i'm not only going to do this for victims of natural disaster,
i will be doing the same for the children and people in poverty stricken countries.
I want to make the world a better place, even if it means spending my whole life trying, even if its just that teeny-weeny change.
I will do it, I must do it.

Peace on earth,
Amanda Wong Suet Yi

aftermath

2009-05-03T14:50:00.003+08:00

as i said in my post on April 23rd,
lee hom's voice is the remedy for my soul.
no doubt about that.

i had a blast last night.
i didn't need to scream all night or be the nearest to the stage to know that i had a great time there!
this is what i call a successful concert lo,
when everyone is singing together!

i screamed the loudest when he played his instruments.
expecially when he walked out with his violin
gosh need i say more?
it was absolutely flawless,
he is, and always will be the one and only music-man, in asia. (and most likely US too)

ahh i want to read my friends blog to see their latest post about lee hom but i really need to get off the com now T_T
i guess i'll be reading reviews from my friends next time T_T

oh and btw,
i hope i will be seeing my blog only after 4 weeks.
i really realy need to start now.
my progression is like 0.1% on all subjects.
and no i'm not trying to fake not studying when i actually have.
I REALLY HAVEN'T STUDY YET.

byebye bloggie.
i hope.

smile

2009-04-30T21:17:00.002+08:00

is it hard to smile?
i don't think so =)

everyone should smile to everyone,
even if its a meaningless, heartless, insincere, fake smile;
even if its your worst enemy,
even if you don't feel like it,
you should.
because when we smile, we make life beautiful.

l.o.v.e

2009-04-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

I wasn’t perfect
I’ve done a lot of stupid things
I’m still no angel
I wasn’t looking for forgiveness
Wasn’t laid out by my pride
Shocked by her attention
And someone signed me up for love
I didn’t want it
And now I can’t live without it

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

She’s kind of perfect
She’s kind of everything I’m not
Yeah, she’s an angel
And it’s amazing how she’s patient
Even more at times I’m not
She’s my conscience
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

She changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can
And who decided I’d be hers
I wanna hate them
Cos now I can’t live without her

Oh, and she changed my life
She cleaned me up
She found my heart
Like only a woman can
She pulls me up
When she knows I’m sad
She knows her man
Like only a woman can

Like only a woman can
Like only a woman can
Like only a woman can

-like only a woman can- Brian McFadden

premonition

2009-04-26T20:20:00.003+08:00

the title has absolutely no link with what i'm saying now.

take care and drink lots of water guys,
the weather is really making us sick.
especially those going for the concert this sat XD

besides that.
i have no intention or idea what to post about,
except being sick and being in genting is a bad combination.

i hate mondays.

i can't wait for this sat.

most random post ever.

can't wait

2009-04-23T22:16:00.007+08:00

~~5th~~
2nd of may,
i call upon you.
come to me in lightning speed.
lol i'm like making spells as if i'm a witch or something. iwish
must be the fever making me type 5th of may.
and i thinking in chinese wu yue er hao haha so like the 5 came first!
i'm a retard
kamsia pjing and cheic

yes, lee hom's music man concert.
i'm not a psychotic fan of him,
but i am a psychotic fan of his singing and talent.
now all i want is for him to sing some of my favourites jazz, blue oldies on his concert.
sorry seems to be the hardest word and billy joel's piano man might be on top of the list XD
ahh sing all billy joel's song lee hom T_T
i wish he could sing sarah mclachan's angel too T_T
but its impossible.
unless lee hom stumbles upon my blog and read through every word of this post.
maybe i should bold the song titles XD *dreaming*
if he does sing them that would be the cherry on top of the cake.
i am in the RM198 seats. and no i'm not rich.
i got it with xpax discount. so don't assume anything ya? XD
i hope the sound system is really good.
i know seating at the 198 seat i can only see a thumb sized lee hom.
if he doesn't perform with his violin, piano, guitar, drum and er hu,
I WILL KICK-BUTT
oh well,
but i just want to hear his voice loud and clear.

because that is the remedy for my soul.

down spirit

2009-04-23T20:26:00.006+08:00

feeling down spirited,.
is it the virus in me?
i don't think so
and yes that is me

i have so much to do so little time
and the exams are around the corner
i have to say exams are not my priorities in life
but its the only thing that makes me a step closer to my priorities
ironic huh?

i'm off to genting after club activities this sat,
i'm bringing my cam,
since i'm positive i ain't going to the theme parks,
taking pictures of the scenery would be the only thing i can do.

Then, janice called just now T_T
she asked to borrow my cam for KRS MUT,
i told her i can't borrow and my lame excuse bcause i'm heading to genting
and i feel darn bad.
sorry jie ni T__T

but after a session of deep thinking,
why should i feel bad?
i should for janice since she's my friend but for the club a definite NO.
if i wasn't going to genting would the club seniors let me be on duty with my own cam?
No.
why should i borrow my cam to others,
when i'm a member of the club
and trying to learn about photographing events,
and the best part is i told the senior indirectly that i want to learn event photography,
and never have i gotten the chance to try. not once.
if the seniors want to use my cam,
PUT ME ON DUTY.
and i dun mean the duties that i dun get to do anything but sit around.
i mean duties like the MUT one.
like c'mon, its that simple.
if you think i can't photograph nicely,
fine let me duty alone, you don't have to teach me,
since its my own cam i would most likely explore its function myself anyway.

ok hold up.
to my close friends who are reading this.
you need to know i still wouldn't mind borrowing my cam to you guys =)
its the photography club people that are making me slightly pissed. XD

so don't ever be afraid of asking me for my cam, especially the ones from seni foto XD
i still love you guys =D

flash-back

2009-04-18T23:21:00.004+08:00

honour the pass, build for the future.

about an hour ago,
i came to my blog and clicked archives.
i started my blog when i was form 2. 2 years. Not really long la.

after reading from my first post till the recent ones, i realized that not only did my English grammar achieved improvements but i am getting better at understanding things too.

the one thing that made me feel terribly disturbed was my english grammar when i was in form 2. god it was horrible.
i'm not saying its great now but i'm certainly admitting that it is a lot better than it use to be.
i still need to build up my grammar, its really deteriorating.
my english level really shouldn't be like this since my main language at home is english.
it pains me to see that my english is not up to my expectations.
i am not and will not with anybody i need to do this to be better than my previous self.

after reading my 2007 entries,
haha it was fun looking back to times when every of my entries has something to do with TVXQ.
hey what could i do they were the first boyband i ever fangirl. and i'm quite sure they're the last.
thanks dong bang! thanks for the memories! ^^
i still like your music but the songs were better when i was at the peak of loving you guys =D
i don't even know whether to laugh or cry.
seeing my immature self relating everything to them, spending money on them, blinded by both their music and undeniably looks too.
i've learned now, i've grown up in that sense =)
i guess its the circle of life ^^

and one thing that improved was my photoshop skills.
though all my graphics were tvxq and k-stars,
its nice seeing that i improved and found my own style.
but the sad thing is i haven't been photohshopping for at least 3-4 months. *siigh*

anyway
i think i might delete this post
beacuse its pointless and boring.
man contradictions is one of my biggest trait = =

ish

2009-04-12T18:23:00.002+08:00

damn man..
called celcom service centre at least 5 times within 20 mintues with regard to my gprs activation problem,
the people are really nice,
but wth is wrong with the system man.
so much problem for a simple gprs activation
and don't know what's wrong i got rm2 deduction from my credit.

oh well at least its activated now. = =

Note

2009-04-10T20:47:00.003+08:00

You want to conquer
The perpetual fever of jealousy?
I will tell you a great secret:
Just love and become one
With your oneness - heart

- Sri Chinmoy

jealousy, you're a soaring social sight,
you disgust me,
you are eating my heart up,
you ruin my principles,
you lure my joy away,
you crush my dreams and hopes,
because you're my biggest sin,
but i'll get rid of you,
i don't know how long it takes,
but i will.
-Amanda WSY

p/s : jealousy is not just an emotion towards your lovers, crush, bf/gf

ironic feeling

2009-04-03T22:36:00.004+08:00

what can i say when there's no words for me to use,
what can i say about this feeling i have,
its no one else,
but me.

would my dream still be there when i fall asleep?
will i wake up seeing my beloved smile,
or will it be just me?

-Amanda Wong

sometimes, ok most of the time, i just have the sudden urge to write.
whatever it is, there's no limited scope of what write.
but usually its about how i feel,
and no its not about teenage crush,
its just about how i feel.

Its been a great 2 weeks of practicing diabolo.
I'm loving the club more and more each day,
there's no more awkwardness among us anymore,
i want us to be like a big family, we are,
but problems will always surface and it'll never stop,
but at least we'll be together.
Ironically,
i hate the fact that i'm loving them more,
especially my seniors who i won't be seeing next year,
it always hurts to know that the person you're starting to get comfortable with is not gonna be there for you the next time.

a simple flick

2009-03-23T20:48:00.003+08:00

Put your hands up!
Vote for earth.

If you're reading this right now you're guilty.
you're guilty for consuming power.
and your one fine way to compensate is to switch off your electricity current on

march 28
8.30-9.30

sing
dance
chat
play
laugh
FUN

join the fun
join the people
join everyone to help earth

celebrity or not, rich or poor, young or old, we unite in every way we might not even know..
so put your hands up for earth!!

http://www.earthhour.org/home/
I will, will you?

undefined

2009-03-09T22:03:00.001+08:00

i think it'll be possible for me to change my skin say next week during the march hols =D

its beeeeeeeeeeen looooong, and the last layout i was making half way, darn, i don't think i'll use it anymore, lets see how it goes..

incase you're wondering, the lack of updates are always because i'm

*visualizing

*learning the guitar

*working on my violin

*self-improving my piano (which is hard T__T)

*finishing my lyrics, and creating new ones (inspire meee)

*reading novels, inspirational books etc

*working out (yes i may look fat to you but i work out at least 4-5 times a week)

*slacking sometimes, ok most of the time = =

*definitely NOT studying

endless

2009-03-09T21:47:00.006+08:00

the one thing that i could turn to is music,
even when everything leaves and ignores me,
music shields me and i wouldn't feel anything and i'd regain my happiness.
my love for music is not your typical "i need music everyday or i'd die"
its more like music helps me find my way back to smile =)
i may not be the best at my instruments, but just playing them makes me feel good.

Music accentuates my life in every way that no one can imagine.

p:s this is not typed in an emotional state of mind. =D

.____.

2009-03-01T14:21:00.005+08:00

as of now,
i hereby declare,
my admiration for alexander wang lee hom has officially rekindled @_@

i say rekindled because i use to really admire and love his song during forever love era= =
then right after i went into form 1 i jumped into kpop / jpop and left the cpop world= =
and forgot about this talented man, plus his looks are a bonus XD
honestly not even my favourite boyband's voice and talent alone can't beat lee hom.
regardless, i still adore them.
adoration and admiration is separated with a fine line.

ok i'm done babbling.

right, i forgot
my history paper tomorrow is history = =
oh and additional maths. darn it.

ps: omg!!! I JUST WENT TO PJING'S BLOG AND LEE HOM IS HAVING A CONCERT HERE ON MAY 2ND, PJING I LOVE YOU FOR POSTING THIS, OMG DEJAVU MUCH???!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

great day

2009-02-24T23:06:00.005+08:00

thanks to yuuka having no hard time reading those purikura machines that were in japanese XD
she made the stickers nicer by putting in our jap names too XD

영원한 친구둘~!

Friends Forever

too close

2009-02-24T22:21:00.005+08:00

i hate being close to someone because that means more tears are shredded during farewell..

she left,
I just got a news from my primary school friend, and he told me rachel is leaving for the same destination too.
i think, i really think, ok, i know,
I rather be the one leaving than seeing my friends leave.

maybe two years later i'd be the one leaving

if u ask me why everyone is moving there,
my answer would be "take a look at our country"
the only thing i'm proud of is the races, culture, people and because its free of natural disasters.
i'm not complaining, i'm stating facts and my opnion,
if you think i'm being overly emotional whatsoever, well you obviously haven't even seen teens nowadays. = =
(below states why i think so)

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on a darker than dark note,

i just had a convo with an old fren,
omg i don't even know why people are taking life for granted nowadays.
he's bday is tomorrow and i forgot abt it well duh i'm not good with numbers and obviously we haven't been in touch for say 4 years???! besides throught msn where we barely speak.
and he comes telling me bla bla bla bla
then when i say "happy birthday, i'm sure you're gonna have a blast with your friends tomorrow"
he comes telling me "no 1 compani me 4 my bday for 3 yrs ......"
and then i say "right, you're totally lying to me XD"
then he says "ppl using me, i hv no real frens, i gud at eng and maths, they got ques onli ask me"

WELL TADAAA, THE REASON WHY YOU THINK YOU'RE BEING USED IS BECAUSE YOU ARE A PESSIMIST, OR MERELY AN EMO-WANNABE.

i'm sure i gave him a good lecture as a friend, HE IS MY FRIEND i just dislike ppl saying as if their lives have no meaning, well u choose to make them that way.

usually when i say the word emo, i literally mean it,
at least i dun go emo-ing around and making other ppl sad.
at most i dun talk but at least answer when ppl talk to me.
thats that.

SOME TEENAGERS SHOULD REALLY STOP SEEING THEIR LIFE AS MEANINGLESS (JUST BECAUSE THE ONE THEY LIKE HAD A BF/GF, THINKS EVERYONE IS USING THEM, ETC) THOSE CAN'T EVEN BE COMPARED TO THOSE HAVING FAMILY PROBLEMS, SICKNESS WHAT NOT.

and yes i said as if i don't complaing about life at all, i do but right after i complain them i usually leave the topic alone.
for example close friends know i always complain about not having enough money, but was that ever been a reason to why i've not talk to anyone? no..
have i use it as a reason to be completely emo the whole day just because i dun have the money fulfill my dreams and ambitions?
there's another thing where i only complain but only my family knows and lets keep it that =)

well ok, i admit this is one long post and not a very bright one well i'll be posting some pictures later.
see i'm smiling now =)
ok now i look like some psycho smiling at the monitor for no darn reason= =

monday blues

2009-02-01T21:24:00.002+08:00

having monday blues right now..

had to much fun this whole week, feels weird just thinking about going back to school O_O
pictures well be up soon? XD

too much fun this week, too much homework the next (i'm sure)
when will my pictures appear?

Aside from this, i really had alot of fun this week,
so many things,
so many people,
so many memories.

I hope you all had a great CNY too~!!
can't believe i'm only going to post so little about my fun week

a thousand words secluded in this heart of mine =)

cow year

2009-01-26T00:43:00.003+08:00

holy cow...its the chinese cow year everyone!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

i'm literally getting half deaf thanks to the firecrackers so i'm not exactly in the place to photoshop some cny graphics XD (what a lame excuse for my lazy alter ego to photoshop)

so ehre are some made by some other earthlings XP

Myspace Chinese New year Comments & Graphics

mixed emotions

2009-01-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

I just got a news from a close friend,
though i do not talk to you as much as i do with some others.
you're definitely, no doubt in my special friends list.
now that you're leaving soon,
i feel like there's so much left unsaid,
i'll miss you soo much when you're there T_T

i might put words into a song and
it shall be added into my compilation of lyrics i write for my special people in my life ^_^

distance aren't obstacles for linking hearts

be inspired

2009-01-14T21:51:00.004+08:00

we as human, our nature is to complain and sulk about how life sucks, and we always want for something more when we already have the necessities to be happy, but what about him?

still complaining?

try to live life to the fullest
one step at a time =)
i'll try my best complaining less
life is not given to be thrown down the river of anger,sadness and revenge
its the river of love that decorates life in its best

violated

2009-01-04T14:41:00.005+08:00

I'm getting prepared now.
for the performance tonight.

school starts tomorrow.
i'm not prepared.
not to mention i haven't even buy the exercise book and school bag yet = =
though friends are the reason i go to school,
i just feel so weird.
i don't know what is up with me, maybe cos im friends with people i know, but don't really fond of, but i wholly know its not them, its me
i know this is a childish reason to feel abnoxious about school,
but then again this is just how i feel.
i hope this feeling will not last long like my first week in 3e..
i hope i'll start liking 4s3 if i ever failed to apply to 4s6/s5.

no matter what the result is, i'm still happy with life. i just need sometime in a new class.yea i know a childish and unreasonable excuse for hating and fearing first day of school in a whole new class.

btw i'm not emo.. don't use that term on me unless you're kidding...i only always use that term when i'm kidding. I'm not some emo kid waiting for life to end when life is blessed to us by god up there.

and i don't have any religion because i believe many types of gods exist, i guess i'm a free thinker then?

ok like totally random from school reopen and religion? totally getting out of hand = =

staying still

2009-01-01T22:25:00.003+08:00

Sometimes just sometimes,
I feel the need to say something,
but that something isn't delivered because i didn't know how to start a sentence.

Would you rather be angry saying something you wish you hadn't?
or stay silent and wish you'd sound?

i guess everyone of us has this feeling once in a while, its normal.

hello twozerozeronine

2009-01-01T14:47:00.003+08:00

~Another great year gone like the wind~
~A new year awaits, lets create more memories to fill up the blanks~

2008 was fabulous,
a year round of big laughs, happy family, great friends, fun events and so much more that I just couldn't put them in words but a simple THANK YOU would be perfect for what i'm feeling. I love you! yes you! I really mean it to all my friends <33 style="font-style: italic;">What is life without ups and downs right?

I'm sorry if I've ever said anything hurtful, annoying, or just plain stupid to anyone in the past, I guess i was to stupid to actually think about what i'm speaking before thinking through it. So i'm really sorry everyone.
I'm feeling sorry for myself too, though i did as much as i could to take me closer to my dreams, i did not do my best.

However, i'm taking a big step forward.

I want to stay healthy, continuing to try for my dreams, do what I love, abide judging people, procrastinate lesser and so much more.
Most of all, i want to be a better daughter, better sister, better friends and a better person in 2009 and the following years.

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Cheers everyone~ HAVE A GREAT 2009!!
XD

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T08:51:00.003+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS

圣诞快乐
メリークリスマス
즐거운 성탄절 되세요
메리 크리스마스

Joyeux Noël

From home to home, and heart to heart, from one place to another
The warmth and joy of Christmas, brings us closer to each other.
-Emile Matthews-

A Christmas message for all my family, friends and everyone out there!!
I love you guys<333

i came online in genting to give everone this messages XD

procrastinating

2008-12-13T12:32:00.003+08:00

kyaaaaah....i'm only updating my PD pictures now..
i've been procrastinating too much lately..*sigh*

ok so i took this at the beach (obviously)

isn't it gorgeous? XP

and me mum and dad did something else at night..me and my sis went back to the hotel..and so we camwhored..predictable no?

disgustingly sexy *thorws up*
who's this? O_O photographed by Jzune..lalala

i'm Manda Panda and i'll rule the world!!i love this pic<333>

She did my spoon pose!! ahaha

we fail trying to look cute *sigh*

i hate her XD

she hates me too xd

this is where we say a monkey..It looks scared of us but i ran and screamed cos i got shock by it..it jumps from tree to tree and make LOUD swooshing sounds..
so its alright to say that i got terribly shocked by it = =

you know what? i've been havning this blog design in my mind since the Port Dickson trip..
that means's i'll be changing my skin soon again..teehee..my new skin banner might be considered conceited to many oif you people..but that's just me XD

내가 돌아 왔 어요 i'm back

2008-12-07T22:44:00.002+08:00

Hey all..

I'm back ^_^
but no pictures for now..
i don't have my camera cable with me..

i thought alot at the beach..
What if my dreams won't come true, chances of my dreams turning into reality is really slim, can i live my life to the fullest without it happening? There's another me inside waiting to come out for the world to see as quoted by high school musical is really true. Many people and even friends look down at my dreams, i want to show them i can, but what if i can't.
For now, i'll continue what i'm doing, and ignore what others think.

my family,dreams and music is my priority

Noraebang

2008-12-02T21:21:00.003+08:00

K so i just came back from Sunway Pyramid with my sis.
Actually i just accompany her to aunt's house to take her stuffs and decided to drop by sunway for some korean food.
the christmas tree at my aunt's house is so awesome!!
and crystal is so darn cute <333>

My aunt's house which looks like a chalet rather than a house..

We went to this korean restaurant, ok more like a side way store in sunway..They actually serve real korean food like dukkboki, bulgogi and stuffs..
My sis and I ordered 3 including ramen + dukkboki
The ramen was ok but not exactly my cup of tea..
but this is my favourite one..

Its korean rice ball..tuna and kimchi flavour

to me it was like kimchi and tuna flavoured bibimbap rolled into a ball..= =
and so we ate..
and cam-whored..

and a decent picture to maintain my image..lala

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and i suddenly feel like doing some photoshop...

.___. a sudden want to photoshop O_O
well i guess i should try..

ah well...

못잊어

2008-11-25T19:17:00.008+08:00

- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold the best apply to you.
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months.

MARCH:Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. ~~Easily angered.~~ Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. ~~Hasty decisions in choosing partners.~~ Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

theres just some personality where i couldn't possibly evaluate myself..=P
you be the judge.

since i'm too lazy to tag anyone i'm not posting other 12 months
but pls do tell me if you wan to do this tag ;)

Isn't the song in my blog just lovely~~

Halloweeeeeeeeeen

2008-10-31T21:22:00.011+08:00

*edit* i should have made it may you rest in peace forever~ mauahhahah*

should i have made it gree rather then red? hmm

haha this is my first scary graphic though =P

too lazy to edit anymore anyway~~

and here is my special picture post dedicated for halloween..

scaredy-cats shalt not scroll more...

JUST KIDDING!

But there is some pictures..i hope they're scary XD

my attempts to being scary and with photoshop for halloween

I AM THE PRINCESS OF DOOMSDAY~~ OBEY ME OR FEEL MY WRATH~~

MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAA

*hunting for innoncent mortals*

cross upon me and shall you face the damn of eternity

*too much twilight for me*

UNLESS YOU'RE STUPID~ you wouldn't know what i am~lala

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i would like to apologize if my pictures did not wow you in anyway whatsoever..

haha at least i tried!

i'm too lazy to take to many pictures so i used the same one T_T

but i dun think i failed

maybe next year..teeeheee

sadly i did not manipulate a werewolf my ps skills ain't that sick..

ahh well..

I DARE YOU! YES YOU TO MANIPULATE A HALLOWEEN COSTUME NOW !!

lets all have fun on halloween~~~

MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!

Confused

2008-10-22T20:22:00.006+08:00

this is the 100th post of my blog and
unfortunately, i'm dedicating it to my stress for the next 2 years of my life in school..

as typical as you should know
every student who just took pmr will be debating right now
SCIENCE STREAM OR ART STREAM?

i wanted to take art stream since there's less stress plus there's account and ekonomi blah stuffs and i could see me doing design and or entrepreneur in the future..but but what if i change my mind in those 2 years..i doubt i would but what ifyou know? what if?
haih

and then if i take science stream, yes i would have more choices if i take this stream but that would mean i would have to spend more time doing something i don't like rather than something i do like..i would be as crazy as a mad cow spending time in school and i'm quite sure i need tuition for the science subject...then what about my time doing things i love..

and worst of all we have to friggin study moral and sivik for the next 2 years...
wtf man seriously wtf *pissed off*

and somehow my school is abit different thanmy sisters one...
i have to friggin take chinese for spm by force and i can't even choose english literature now...damn it...and our school ends at 2.20 on mon and tues....arghhh

i think i'm making a big scene on this topic...T_T
but why must they do this to us right after pmr? why? can't they just let us enjoy for a month...

i'm done complaining now, but i still have to squeeze out all my brain juice for the sack of my future T_T

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since i don't want to leace my 100th post in a pissed and annoyed mood...
here's a pic..

Happy 100th Post to my bloggie = =

*please make my dream come true*

i didn't know

2008-10-18T23:49:00.003+08:00

this past few days or maybe weeks...
i found out another thing about myself...
i have to admit i was sorta stress in a way that i was not stress the past weeks but something made me go through all of it smoothly..of course my ma and pa has always been there for me like my ma..hehe sry ma for kacauing you to teman me sleep...

but music has been great to me..
i didn't know i loved music to this extend..
whenever i felt just a that bit tired or something..i would just play the piano, violin or listen to the music and i feel so calm...
the feeling is mesmerizing =)
i really didn't know music has such power in helping me..

i guess i can really say music is my life now...

there's so many things to do now but i have a strong feeling all this will pass so soon i wouldn't even notice which is said..sometimes i just wonder why can't we stop time? but its ok since that's what makes life interesting...hmm

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its never bad to dream big.

Tadaimasyo

2008-08-16T22:35:00.002+08:00

YO all~~

guess what...
i bought my camera..
i bought this.. XD

Anyway i can't update on MTV Asia Awards now since i'm really tired..
and i'm going to Hong Kong tomorrow..
lets hope u won't see me tanner than i already am now T__T
i will be back on Wed..its just a short trip~~

that' all ^_^

Tadaimasyo

The Comeback!

2008-08-14T20:29:00.002+08:00

yoooohoooo~~!!! i see you~~no actually i see freedom ( only for a week)
the trials are over....at the moment..
many more awaits..
actually i still have chinese paper tomorrow but wth...i wouldn't get close to getting an A even if i tried...gah...

of course i'll be updating abit on MTV Asia Awards in my next post
not updates just a few pics..
PCD, One Republic Click Five and Leona rocked!

And guess what.......

I'm most likely to get a new camera tomorrow..
with my own money..
i don't want to use my parents money...althought the money from my bank is from them but still i rather not use theirs..cos i love them <333 XD
Theres a ICT fair in Jusco Bukit Raja if u didn't know..
that's where i'm getting my camera if i'm actually getting it..

I'm still contemplating on which one to get..

The Panasonic Lumix DMC-FS3 for RM699?
or
The Samsung L100

both the promoters did well..and that's where my problems popped...
both this camera have almost the same pros and cons..
that's why i'm checking on the web and let me tell you there is abit too many review blogs nowaday, geeez......

anyway i'm of to hunt for mroe infomations now...

oh ya did i mention i so totally pooped my exam in this gay trials?
shiat...

ima wa nanji desuka?

2008-07-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

Ima wa nanji densuka?
Ima waa benkyo-ji desu..

haha i don't even know whether its grammatically correct or not..but who cares?

anyway its time to roll up the computer and start opening my books..
monthly tests comes on next week, and trial has bring push forward to 11th of August, and i would like to say that i am so doom as of now.

I went totally off-track my timetable today, thanks to my afternoon nap syndrome.
and now here i am watching some videos of david archuleta singing to Apologize with One republic on youtube. Damn it was good!

and now i have to stop confabulating on MSN and start throwing myself into those interesting books..Why can't we have practical exam instead? Theory doesn't help much.

WHAT CAN YOU DO IF YOU CAN ONLY WRITE AND NOT SPEAK? Nothin.

random thought

you know...i would like to have this kind of dog as a pet...next time...
when you're invited for my 21st bday and if don't know what to buy for me, please consider this..

WARNING CUTENESS OVERlOAD
siberian husky

credits flickr

thess would be just fine too

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i camwhored while i was studying.. great just great...ughh

Till then, i don't know when my next post will be =(

otokhe..

2008-06-29T21:23:00.002+08:00

i can't seem to get my head into studying for pmr..
i don't know why...seriously....i should be studying or at least doing some pmr related stuffs and here i am either using the computer or reading some english storybooks or wadeva T__T

I need something to motivate me...
i know this sounds cliched but my future depends on my knowledge = =
not to say that pmr or anything will actually get us through life but still.....gahhhh

and then there's like many email circulating saying that in 2 years or 2 months time the world will face economy crisis, inflation, bla bla bla....history in the making T__T
and then there's this global warming thingy too..

wth is wrong with me talking about all this so randomly...geez

i notice my blog posts are always lack of pictures...
here are some..

beautiful isn't it?

shall we go for a ride?

toodles~

freedom??

2008-05-23T20:05:00.003+08:00

officially back

yay~~ mid terms are over...pmr has yet to come though = =

i was supposed to update right after i got home..but hahaha i've been dying to watch a dvd my mum bought since monday....so well duh of course i watched it first...
anyway its a dance movie....one of my fav currently <333 style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">
i dance

ok...i know the first thing that might pop into your mind is she dance?? she so huge, fat and she wanna dance? she can mie? sure ugly wan...

k i don't care..because i never say i was good...but i'll show my dance vid and maybe my singing vid to you guys one day...or maybe if we went to a dance studio together then you will see ^^
don't tease me with this post the next time u see me T_T
i actually never really liked dancing until last year honestly...althought i still prefer singing...
i mean dancing is really fun and cool and just plain awesome....
well i think most people wouldn't really dare to dance their heart out at first...like me...
but once you actually get to the climax and understand the fun of dancing...its actually equally awesome and fun just like singing....

Dancing is a language every human being knows. its in your soul...
- dunnno where i heard this from -

haha kss...enough of me and dancing lol....but i'm kinda like christie now...wondering why didn't i take ballet classes last time...ah well.....

anyways my blog will be revamped with a whole new look !! stay tune!!

Listening to
Flo Rida - Low *goggle and download this song* its a piece of ear candy <3

Study Tips

2008-04-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

I'm posting this because i'm suppose to be studying right at this very moment for the upcoming test and the fuhreaking test that the goverment force all form 3 malaysian to take to prove that the srtudents not stupid...you almost always see me typing about exams at each of my entrees but never do i get to studying ....whatever

but still all students reading this entree should thank me for this = = (i may not be the person who wrote all this but i added some tips i think will help you and i'll translate all the cheemology words he/she use into simple teen english, so kind of me right??? say you love me~ lala )

Tips on how to study smart
(don't study hard idiot, study smart)

Study in short sessions
Just don't study long long hours. Take a break every 10-15 minutes. listen to a song, draw, play a game, have a cup of coffee or take a short nap every little thing counts. Get back to studying after that. You will find studying easy. (haha although i am writing this now, no 100% guaranteed. it all comes down to whether the person is stupid or smart.

Take Guilt-Free Days of Rest
If you do not or don't want to study on say Sunday, but you're thinking "aiyoo, i should be studying now la" (like my current state) then your resting time will create more stress. Then your brain won't absorb anything. Enjoy fully and don't feel guilty on your rest day.

Honor your emotional State
Feeling stress out for your bf? Just came back from a whole day of shopping? Not enough sleep watching porn last night? If you are emotionally stressed. It is pointless to sit down and study when your mind is in lala-land.

Prepare your study environment
Library? Park? Your Bf/Gf's room? *ahem* At the corner of your room with rock music blasting in your ears? in the car? in the kitchen? when you are doing your toilet business with your tissue clients? Choose a place where you are comfortable and without distractions. (for me it has to be either korea, japan, paris or milan..Great that means i'll never get to study smart)

Create a Study Routine
Simple. Have a time table. Don't just fit in your study schedules, you tend to say "oh dang..not enough time, aiya nevermind la tomorrow only study". Schedule like this "Tuesday-study history 3-4am. Then you're good to go.

Set Reasonable Goals
Sometimes we can see some bhb (bei hiao ba - people who think they are good when they are not) having really impossible, high goals about themselfs then when they didn't reach their goals they cry and cry as if their dog just died. Set goals you can accomplished. You'll get in the habit of accomplishing them and gradually you can set higher goals. Also, recognize the difference between long-term and short-term goals. Set your vision on the long-term dream, but your day-to-day activity should be focused exclusively on the short-term, enabling steps.

Avoid the frustration enemy
A and B are good friends. A gets frustrated while studying, because A was afraid of losing to B and starts thinking "sh*t i'm not studying fast enough" and B is also studying really slow but B doesn't get all nervous like A, because B is more self-accepting and compares with himself rather than other people. But people like B eventually learn more than people A because they learn slowly without any disturbance.

Finally done..Okla so there's still more tips but i need to study too you know??
hope you guys will learn and apply some new tips the next time you study..
okok I know not everyone gonna read my loooong boring post...but i'm not the one losing anything *lalalala*

Mrs Kim and Me <33>